if people who reads my blog notices, my previous entry was deleted due to its sensitivity. (well, my mum says its sensitive. so... you know)

skip that, theres so many to write about yesterday. i had a total breakdown.

it was a usual usual day, had maths paper 1 and geography, was quite okay. went to school and to home alone again. everyone had someone with them except me. i was really sad. then amirah asked me about darling, how long we are together. i proudly told her everything but she asked if i was scared if tomorrow break. i shivered. then darling called and talked to me so fierce. say i talk to guys again. send testy, blabla. of cause im angry. my dearest accused me. its was really hot and i was really tired. he couldnt stop yaking.

we quarrelled till i got home and said i was tired. then he call again. i was really really fed up can. he couldnt understand.

after all that, he asked for a break up cause he thought i was suffering. crying didnt help at first and he lied about liking another girl because he said he wanna stop wasting time. i know its all rubbish. then he broke down as well, crying and telling me he love me the most. couldnt let me go but had too cause he saw me suffering with him. but i didnt care. i really love him (: saw this my baby?

i love you! no more leaving me behind and i wont too as well.

i dont wanna go into too much details, i will burst out again cause its just too much to handle. i couldnt imagine life without him. people may think bad of him but i think he is my everything. no comments on us, me or him.

but i really hate it when u ask about something i really didnt do. it really irritates me. can darling stop? im waiting for that to happen. i will change for you. i hope you do the same thing for me as well. okay?

i really have no mood for studying although its science the next day. shiat. =/

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had science paper today, it was easier then expected. wohoo! happy leh. hope can pass lorh. cause i know im not that good in the others. (:

went to school and back home alone today again, how many again already? haiis. hope you keep your promise the next time. i really hope for it to happen cause i believe in you.

so i headed for viva for lunch with jess darlink, jason, terance and her classmates instead. we had so much fun talking. jason help me buy duck rice cause the shop guy is pervert. =x alert to girls! remember okay! LOL!

reached home and lynn laopo asked me out for a date but i fell asleep in the end. sorries po! wanted to go shower already but ended up lying on the sofa snoring. =x

woke up and found out about people spamming my dar's taggy. which is TEO WAN YEE. she spam like very fun then scold liao she act like not her. is other people act her. then went for a look at her site, saw so many flooding scolding us. then lynn told us she act as the frens cause her cousin go check ip ler. -.-

so bo liao can! cant believe shes the eat-full-nothing-to-do type. then she admits to dar that she use other people's pictures!

fcuking damn god finally! she can go to hell.

scold me slut? say my dar and laopo? use other people name scold us? say wont let us walk outta school? please la you are just a faker, no point arguing with us. i swear i wont let you walk if you try me. dont play punk with me okay.

FAKER TEO WAN YEE. this should be your real name. fcuk!

arghs!

anyway, i slacked till now. shit. my brother aint home. whose gonna teach me maths? die liao lorh. so sian. darling cant come somemore. =/ why everytime like that? everytime got something one. haiis.

time for more slacking. alone.

how i hope you are by my side now. but you are always not here. why?

;i am afraid